I could not understand how people could hate the holidays, until it happened to me! Holidays have never had any big special place in my heart. I've never been one to go all out and stuff. but I have to say that since Eric died my holidays have been less than stellar. I do not like to go to Thanksgiving dinner unaccompanied. I do not like to decorate this little house for just me (and for my little polar bear to undecorate when she is restless). I do not like to wake up on Christmas morning alone. and no presents to give to anyone. and then along comes new year's eve. this one may have to be the worst. All the happiness and excitement, all the booze you can shake a stick at, you waving goodbye to yet another year of your life. ugh, is all i have to say. i cannot possibly be expected to continue to celebrate these events in this way. cannot possibly.
My mother is pretty adamant about me decorating the house. SO for the first time in a long time i plucked some decorations out of the attic. my tiny tiny Christmas tree, some pink lights for the window. And a sparkling garland on the bathroom shelf.
we'll see how long it is before i take them down.
My mother is pretty adamant about me decorating the house. SO for the first time in a long time i plucked some decorations out of the attic. my tiny tiny Christmas tree, some pink lights for the window. And a sparkling garland on the bathroom shelf.
we'll see how long it is before i take them down.
2009 will be the best year ever. Right?
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